Several years ago while living in San Diego, I had one of those horrible, no good, awful days. You know the kind, where you carry your soap box around with you because everything sets you off and you want to voice your opinion on them. I cannot remember what all set me off, some I do and since they are of a political nature, I will refrain from dredging them up. Anyhow, my dear hubby came home from work, ate his dinner listening to my rants of the day and suggested an evening drive to the mountains. Now, if it were me, I would make that suggestion to throw me off said mountain, but, fortunately, I am not him. Instead, he drove me to the mountains, to ‘our’ spot that has a turn out and a beautiful view of the desert floor.
We drove the 40 minutes to the mountains, pulled into our spot and got out of the car. I stood looking at the darkness surrounding me. It was quiet there, no traffic noise. Hubby wrapped his arms around me and just held me. After the day I had, he knew that this is what I needed. Quiet, peace and the sky. I sighed and told him, “Someday I just want to be able to walk out my front door and see stars again. Not have to drive almost an hour just to see a star in the sky.”
Stars are hard to see in big cities. The light pollution fills the night sky and blank out the stars. Yes, there are a few stars, but, they are not brilliant.
Last night I could not sleep. Again. As I lay in bed I started to watch the parade in my mind of every little thing that needed attention. Granted, in the middle of the night, EVERYTHING you think of is in need of attention. I finally got up and walked into our dining room. I peeked out of the curtains and saw the front porch. On it sat two chairs, small ones but they were there nonetheless. They are just little things that I wanted this summer and there they were. I told myself that this was a reminder, things get taken care of.
I next walked into our living room and walked over to a set of french doors. Looking out I tried to see if any deer were sleeping in the yard, there were none that I could see. I started to think of the flower garden that each year I attempt to get under control and each year I have failed. I quickly walked away from the window.
Next, I was in our kitchen. At the window I looked out and adjusted my eyes to the lights at the end of our driveway and our neighbors driveway lights. They gave a gentle glow to the bare trees in our side yard. Beautifully rising and casting shadows in the night sky. It was an awesome sight, like a painting I have seen somewhere. My eyes kept going up and there, spread across the sky as far as I could see were stars! Bright stars that reminded me of little white Christmas lights blanketing the sky.
In that moment, I felt like I was being covered with a warm blanket. Those stars were shining for me to see. Those stars were right outside my door. Stars for me to see and watch and marvel at. Psalm 37:4 says, “Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires.” Standing in my kitchen and looking out at the night sky, I realized I had so many of my heart’s desires. Humbled, I turned to go back to bed.
As I reached the doorway of my bedroom I remembered Psalm 46:10 a “Be still, and know that I am God;”
It always amazes me when I actually stop long enough to be still. To stop and listen instead of continually yapping to our Lord about things. Middle of the night parades rob me of peace. They rob me of sleep. They rob me of listening when I need to hear things. Sometimes I need to get up and just look at what surrounds me and remember that my God knows exactly what I need. Today, I am thankful and grateful and hopefully I won’t move from this place for a while.
Thanks for stopping by today, hope you have a good day. Cathi (DAF)