It is after 2 a.m. as I start to write this post. I had gone to bed a couple of hours ago and lay there, tossing, stretching, trying to get comfortable. Nothing was working and hubby was up browsing the local Craig’s List, so, I gave up and got up.
It’s amazing to me how your mind wanders while you are trying to capture sleep. At least my mind wanders. I go in to bed telling myself to relax and unwind and keep my mind free from thinking.
I pray for those I have told I would pray for during the day. Then I pray some more for things that I have just thought of.
Several people have told me over the years to pray at night because it makes them fall asleep. That never works for me. I like to pray. I begin, as I mentioned above, and then, before I know it I have spent several minutes bordering on hours thinking of people and praying for them. I did that a couple of hours ago.
This always leads my mind to other things. Before I know it there is a parade forming in my mind. Out come the banners announcing the next participant in the parade. The banners will have things like “Grandson” and then I will think of my precious Little Man. I will think of the recent pictures and videos of him. I will think of the conversations I have had with him. I will begin to think about when he will visit next and what we could do. I think on him until the next banner comes into view.
More than likely after grandson, comes granddaughter and thoughts of Little Miss come tumbling into my mind. I will remember her little laughter and the fun we have had. I will remember her going through the obstacle course we had set up so she wouldn’t climb the stairs. I will remember hearing her say as she is climbing, “tairs”. So proud of her accomplishments, clapping and waving to us down below. As with Little Man’s part of the parade, I also wonder when I get to see and hold and chase after Little Miss.
Now, this is where the parade changes for me. The next few parts of the parade can either be filled with thoughts of what we could do with this home and gardens, which leads to what I could buy or re-purpose. And this part of the parade could last hours.
If it is not home oriented, the following parts of the parade are people, family, friends, trying to remember names of people we once knew in our travels. That one is good because I lay there thinking of situations we were in and hoping that a name will somehow come into view.
I dislike those type of parade participants. The parts that either have a name of a person, or an actor, or a phrase from a movie or song you can’t quite put your finger on. This is frustrating to say the least.
Well, now I have taken several minutes of your time while you see how my mind actually works at night. I do this nightly. I envy those who tell me that they fall asleep as soon as their head hits the pillow. That must be incredible! Most nights, if I can actually fall asleep before 3 a.m., I count it as a full night’s sleep.
So, now, it is a quarter after the hour. I hear hubby starting to get sleepy and know that he will be asleep before his head hits the pillow. Thank you for reading my ramblings. I am going to head back to bed and hopefully after writing this all out, the only part of the parade left will be those with the brooms that come after the horses.
Good night and thanks for stopping by, DAF (Cathi)