During this time of quarantine when we have all the time we thought we never had, how much are we actually accomplishing?
I know I am one who says, if we weren’t so busy I would…. and then fill in the blanks. Some of those blanks are, I would really get a good start on my book. I would be more consistent blogging. I would paint my bedroom. I would work on my screen porch. The list is endless.
So, here we are, towards a month of staying in. I have done things in fits. Yes, there was that week where I posted on my blog daily. That was two weeks ago. I have done maybe whole day of researching for my book. I have thought about painting my bedroom. I have looked at my screen porch. But, I haven’t accomplished anything, really.
Today in my devotion time I read where God can give you a tap on the shoulder or hit you with a two by four to get my attention. I have always said He has a two by four with my name on it that is right beside His throne of Grace. Also during my devotion time I was lamenting not accomplishing anything. This time it was a tap on the shoulder and I realized something about myself. I am a fits and starts person. I just looked it up, as I am apt to do when writing, so that I am correct in my phraseology. According to Dictionary.com this adjective is defined as: (of similar things or occurrences) appearing or happening at irregular intervals in time; occasional: sporadic renewals of enthusiasm. appearing in scattered or isolated instances, as a disease. isolated, as a single instance of something; being or occurring apart from others. occurring singly or widely apart in locality. Synonyms for fits and starts are choppy, jerky, sporadic, spastic, just to name a few.
So, today’s lesson for me is that no amount of time and lack of schedule truly changes who I am. I will put off what I don’t feel like doing. My thoughts of how noble I would be if I had all the time in the world have been burst. I will now go and eat my humble pie and think of how I can change some of these behaviors.
Thank you for listening to my confession. I hope you will absolve me while I am trying to figure out how to change 65 years of behavior! Stay safe, stay healthy and wash those hands! Cathi (DAF)