I haven’t been on my blog much the past few weeks, but, I have been writing. I have spent the past couple of months writing, thinking and preparing for a Bible Study that I have shared with a wonderful group of ladies at my church. It is always an honor to speak and this time was no different.
What I have really thought about these past few weeks is words. How we say things is as important as what we say. Wording is so very important, isn’t it?
I know I have failed miserably in the past to put thoughts into words and also writing before actually thinking things through. But, I suppose we are all guilty of saying things to others before thinking of how they may come out and how they may sound to the other person.
We truly do not know what is going on inside another person. We do not know the pain or anguish or stress they may be carrying, yet are not showing it to the outside world. How we respond in words can make a person’s day or ruin it.
Several times this past year I have spoken without thinking. I know it has caused pain, but, even after apologizing, the pain, for me, was still there. Words can damage a heart if spoken in haste or without thought. So, for the past few weeks, I have been cautious as to how I am wording conversations.
This experience has revealed several things to me. First, the adage, if you don’t have something nice to say, don’t say anything at all, should be tattooed in my eyelids so that I can always see them. Secondly, don’t expect forgiveness to come easily if you have harmed someone with your words. I am the type of person who can flare up, but within an hour, I am sorry, and have recognized that I have been wrong. I have learned not everyone is like me. Thirdly, lack of words is worse than an abundance of words. It is a very fine line and I am learning, unfortunately, how to be a tight rope walker.
I have thought in the past that a blog is where you can write things you may be feeling and with that you can release emotions that may not be an easy part of yourself to reveal. I am rethinking that. A part of my Bible Study has been to encourage women to be themselves and to not hide behind masks that are so much a part of being a human being, especially a woman. We tend to hide and only reveal our strength, our firmness, and not allow our fragile side to come out. Sometimes, in writing words, we reveal a soft side and it can be poked and bruised easily.
I am hoping that through these past few weeks, I have learned much about words and wording and coming out behind masks. I have always loved words, and putting them together. I have always loved being able to have a few close friends that I can share spoken words with. My love of words is still a very present part of me, and I look forward to learning more about how and what to write. Cathi (DAF)