I have been battling disappointment. Someone has let me down and it has blindsided me so completely I have not been able to wrap my mind around it.
The truth is, that it isn’t the first time I have experienced disappointment from this person. But, I usually can just look at the situation and get over it. For some reason, this time is different.
I try my best to not be a disappointment. My daughters have always told me that the worst thing I could ever say to them is that I was disappointed. Although I have said it to them at times, they could never disappoint me. The joy and life they bring to my heart is a constant source of peace to me.
That is one reason why I have struggled with this. This evening after dinner hubby and I were talking about things on our hearts and mind. I started to verbalize, for the first time in weeks what I was struggling with. He listened intently and gave me wise counsel, which I have mulled over in my mind.
So, since this is the place where I am honest with myself, I decided to write about it. I am not looking for a resolution, but, I needed to write this out. Mostly for me to see and know that this nagging feeling that has been pricking my heart has a name and a reason. It is disappointment.
A quote I found sums it up for me: “Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the person you thought would never hurt you.” I found this on Iliketoquote.com.