I am an introvert. I am quite content to sit at home, message other bloggers, stay on Facebook, see what is happening in the lives of others. I like quiet and being in small groups.
About a month ago, a co-worker of hubby’s called and invited us to a baby shower for his daughter. Hubby handed the phone over to me and I talked with the gentleman for a bit and half listened to directions to his house. We committed to the shower and that was that.
I was glad to have something to do with hubby after his surgery and this family is a very nice family to be around. The invitation arrived last week and I opened it, read it and planned on what to give as a gift.
Two days ago, I actually looked at the envelope and realized that this was not a couple thing, it was a me thing. Me… the one who does not like new situations. Me… who does not do well in crowds. Me…. who would rather run naked down the street than go into a room full of strangers who might look at me. Yes, my insecurities have gone into overdrive!
I have spent the past couple days going back and forth about this shower. On one hand, I know it will not be as bad as I think it will be. But, it starts at 6:30 and is in a new part of town and I don’t see well at night to drive. I have tried to talk myself out of chickening out and so far I am succeeding.
I am taking hubby along and he and the gentleman from work are going to go out. I guess there is a group of men going. This is fine, except he is still pretty tired from his surgery and he is still in a sling. His dominant arm is bound to him, so it should be interesting for him.
So, we have come up with a plan. I will drop him off and he will go with the guys. I will stay at the shower and plan on leaving early. I will then go and pick him up and bring him home.
There are times when I really dislike my personality. This is one of those times. I wish I was one to enjoy new adventures and experiences, to be bold and outgoing. I know, at times, I have been able to do this, overcoming my hesitation. I am hoping tonight, once I am ready to go, I will somehow put on my extrovert cape and head out into this party.
If nothing else, I will have to remember Philippians 4:13, ” I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
Thanks for reading my rant of the day! DAF