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Ramblings from a would be writer

Weary…

on July 18, 2013

1wea·ry

adjective \ˈwir-ē\

Definition of WEARY

1: exhausted in strength, endurance, vigor, or freshness
2: expressing or characteristic of weariness <a weary sign>
3: having one’s patience, tolerance, or pleasure exhausted —
(Merriam-Webster dictionary)
I have felt weary for the past couple weeks.  I have absolutely no reason to feel this way, I don’t think.  I had a delightful fourth of July, and the following Sunday I had a relaxing day spent with friends.  We went swimming in their pool, then took their boat out for a sunset picnic.  Delightful.  Relaxing.  Calming.
Then last week came and went.  Hubby and I discovered a swimming pool on the military base ten minutes from our home.  We went and swam a few times last week.  It was great.  I did burn as my complexion is inherited from my ancestors from the British Isles.  I did as I always do, burn, freckle and peel… I am in the peeling stage as I write this.
Somehow, though, in the midst of all of this I hit a wall.  I have not been able to read my favorite blogs, I have not commented on them.  I see the notifications on my email of new posts and I smile.  Good for them, they are writing, creating.  I have wanted to sit, read and write on them, but somehow it seems like too much to do.  Isn’t that awful?
I think what is most puzzling is that only my mind seems weary.  I still have energy, I am cooking and cleaning and walking and exercising.  I just don’t want to think.
So, I write this, partly to get myself out of this weariness, and partly to know I have at least attempted to write.
Next week we are travelling.  I have already started the staging area on my dining room table.  I use my shopping bags and fill them with things I want to take.  One bag has things I think my daughter may have use for  for our grandson’s birthday party.  Another bag is filled with wrapped presents.  I have a picture I bought years ago in Phoenix for my brother-in-law and his wife.  I bought it for them for a Christmas gift one summer, and then put it away so that it would be safe.  It was safely hidden until this past move.  I have it out to hand deliver to them when we visit Pennsylvania.
I look forward to our trip.  I am thinking this will be a time to be refreshed, renewed, rested.  Isaiah 40:27-31 says:
27-31 Why would you ever complain, O Jacob,
or, whine, Israel, saying,
“God has lost track of me.
He doesn’t care what happens to me”?
Don’t you know anything? Haven’t you been listening?
God doesn’t come and go. God lasts.
He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine.
He doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath.
And he knows everything, inside and out.
He energizes those who get tired,
gives fresh strength to dropouts.
For even young people tire and drop out,
young folk in their prime stumble and fall.
But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.
They spread their wings and soar like eagles,
They run and don’t get tired,
they walk and don’t lag behind.  (The Message)
A friend wrote this verse to me a couple of weeks ago.  The same day another friend posted it on Facebook.  I think I may need to read and study this one for a while.
Meanwhile, I want to thank you for stopping by, thank you for your encouragement, thank you for your example in your writing.  It all means so much to me.  DAF
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12 responses to “Weary…

  1. Susie says:

    First of all, I really like your new “look” (she smiles). A very interesting post today my friend. We can busy our bodies and be weary – I think that’s what I’m hearing you say. I think the hardest thing to do in these days is to find the good, the pure, the lovely each day. But in a few days I’m sure you’ll feel your joy return – in fact, I’m positive (she smiles). I believe I read something today that said, “always take the small step” (forward). You did. You wrote words that meant something to you and someone else. Sending hugs and love to you DAF

  2. thank you MY dear friend… I tried… just needed to write something tonight, anything. I know in a few days I will be so filled with joy, life and excitement, I cannot wait to be with you all. Love you! Thanks for commenting.

  3. Whew I can relate to how you’re feeling. Maybe it’s the heat. I am cracking up at finding that gift…been there…lol. Enjoy your travels and especially enjoy the little Prince. I can’t believe he is going to be the big ONE already…time flies. I look forward to reading about your rejuvenation when you return. Happy Birthday to the little guy : )

  4. thank you Life! I will pass on your wishes. I even hesitated writing last night, but knew I needed to do something. So glad you understand, hope all is well with you and thanks for stopping by!

  5. Kari Ann says:

    I felt the same way for a couple months in the winter and still do from time to time. Sometimes I’m full of energy and creativity and sometimes I just want to sit and mindlessly watch TV. I hope the time away with family will refresh you. Happy birthday to the little guy :]

  6. thank you Kari Ann! I have all of your posts from your trip yet to read. I cannot wait to actually sit and look at them and enjoy them. I so appreciate you and love reading your work. You are a talented photographer and writer, and you do inspire me. Thanks for stopping by and for the encouragement.

  7. Deborah Johnson says:

    Keep up the “rambling” I think you will find answers to your questions and healing in them. The scripture you gave in Is is so beautiful in the Message. We know it so well from other translations that I find it to be a real attention getter, a whole new perspective! May your emotional and mental strength be renewed on your visit. ~DJ

  8. thank you so much friend! So glad you came by my blog, that means a lot to me. Love you! DAF

  9. I love this essay…it also fell on my birthday. I hope by the time you read this you will be feeling better. I too, like Top Down, can relate to how you feel..but all things pass, good and bad. The heat sure doesn’t help. Peace I give you….he said.

  10. you are so sweet. trying to get past this all. at least I am writing again, which helps. Thank you for the blessing, and for being you. You have been in my thoughts often.

  11. You must keep writing…It’s God’s gift to you…how do I know? You’re so good at it. It’s what has kept me going through this nightmare of losing my hearing. WRITE!!!!!!!!!NO MATTER WHAT!

  12. thank you Susannah, I so appreciate you. Your encouragement means a lot to me.

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