I have chronic insomnia. I have had it all my life, in fact, it is a way of life for me. I don’t know how people can say, “I’m tired, I’m going to bed.” and then they actually fall asleep! Amazing.
While I lay awake, questions pop into my mind. Those questions usually drive me back up out of bed and I stumble to where the computer is to find the answers. I squint in the darkness as my screen lights up and then I hear our dear anonymous puppy come stumbling down the stairs to look at me like I am crazy. This is what happens most nights. Those nights lead me on a quest and usually a list making venture. Of course, the next day I look at those inspired lists and toss them easily as they make absolutely no sense to me in the light of day.
The question I had this week I did not bother googling it. I decided I would ponder it and write about it to see what advice I would get from cyberspace. Here is the question, please someone, anyone, answer it! Why does your bed feel more comfortable in the morning than it does at night?
I fight my bed nightly. It is a relatively new bed so it is not that I am not used to it. My pillow is broken down just how I like it. My husband is not so new, but, he too, is broken down just how I like it. I don’t do caffeine after 3:30 p.m.. I don’t eat before bed. I have both exercised and not exercised before bed, and it makes no difference. Each night it is the same battle. I toss and turn and complain to whoever can hear my mental yelling about how uncomfortable I am.
Finally I fall asleep. When I start to wake in the morning I always feel so comfortable. The argument with the bed is over and we are now best friends. It holds me so nicely and it is soothing to me. It beckons me to stay put and to start my day in a while. It tricks me into thinking we are good friends. I always hate to part ways in the morning, but I do. I lovingly straighten out the sheets and the blankets. I put the spread on it and promise to visit again soon.